Sunday, November 29, 2009

HeLLo kitty



Arden betty

my baby is three! three years old, and im in shock. in my mind i have been re-living the moments and the events from her birth.here are a few things that i will share.
-eating steak the night before i went in to be induced...i looked and felt like crap, but savored every last bite.
-contracting in my room for days, counting minutes between them
-watching pbs in the dark and screaming during the contractions:)
-eating lime ice and watching little mermaid in the bed minutes before she came
-pulling my braids and saying the f word at beau because "you did this to me"
-my flannel wal mart pjs
-those blue sox around my swollen ancles
on a lighter note...
-her little face
-nursing her and rocking her to enya
-that delish tart from the hospital...i dig hospital food
-not letting beau watch forest gump because "it was bad"-and we need to be good for the baby:)
-being absolutely and positively in love
with my little bundle and those lil poops
-not second guessing her name, she was arden betty the first moment i saw her
-the EMOTIONS!! was a bawl baby, and weird,and paraniod...baby blues,poast pardum, you name it i had it
-setting up our christmas tree, crying at stupid songs on the radio like...the rembrants "anywhere you go i'll follow you down"-i was
pathetic:)
-the weirdo nurse that i swear was an escapee from a nut house posing as a nurse
-the roses from my family
-beau gave me heavenly purfume and because of the baby and skin to skin contact i wore it six months later
-telling beau to "slow down" on the freeway even though he was going 45mph
I REMEMBER ALL THIS AND MORE LIKE IT WAS A WEEK AGO, IT WAS HARD BUT I WOULDNT TAKE IT BACK FOR A SECOND...I LOVE MY LITTLE LADY SO MUCH..HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY.





Yes, it was hello kitty madness....enjoy










Tuesday, November 24, 2009


these are my watercolors
they used to belong
to a girl called
kiola
she wrote her name on them
they were perfect when i found em
now look at them
used
loved
they are mine now
i have left my mark
kiola
you cant have them back

Saturday, November 21, 2009

I LOVE MARK RYDEN
SOME PEOPLE ARE A LITTLE "FREAKED" BY HIS ART
I AM ONLY INSPIRED
I WOULD LOVE TO MEET HIM


HE IS AMAZING

Thursday, November 19, 2009


dreams
i have these
dreams these bad dreams
every week
my hair is
gone
all gone
and its all my fault because i
cut it off
i have hair issues
when i was 14
my sister told me i would look
bad with long hair.
so,i kept it short for
five long years
it makes me wanna throw up
thinking about that hair.
i dont care how
raggidy this mop gets.
i will never cut it off.
sorry locks of love.its this or suicide.



Sunday, November 15, 2009


IN THIS LITTLE WEEK-LOOKED OUT MY KITCHEN WINDOW (NOVEMBER)
AND SAW THIS ROSE
-DISCOVERED A NEW LIBRARY THAT IM IN LOVE WITH
-WAS NICE AS PIE TO THE MEAN LADY AT THE HELLO
KITTY STORE SHE WAS NICE BACK.....HMMMM
-RE-READING SPEAK (SUCH A GOOD BOOK)IN LOVE
-ALMOST CUT MY OWN BANGS IN A BRIEF MOMENT OF INSANITY....
-FOUND AN OLD SONG FROM AN OLD LOVE "MIX TAPE"-THAT I HAVENT HEARD IN YEARS...ONLY TO FIND I STILL LOVE MY "RAINY DAY SONG"
-ALMOST MADE BEAU GET ME PREGNANT, BUT THEN DECIDED "HMMMM MABY ILL SLEEP A LITTLE INSTEAD"
BECAUSE DAMN,THIS HOUSE IS CRAZY ENOUGH AS IT IS....... IM STILL TOYING WITH THE IDEA OF A LITTLE ONE.ITS ON THE BRAIN-"INsAnE iN tHE fReEkIn MeMbRaNe"




-beau has just made an "indian call" out out of a mini-dots (halloween candy) box and is watching fast and the furious...GaY but at least he made me some lemon zinger tea...thanks poop.
-arden just had a orange juice tantrum(because she dosnt pee enough right?) and is watching "balemtime" aka (Land before TiMe)in my bed
-and im here....JUST... TAKING IT ALL IN.

Thursday, November 12, 2009


inside one of my little reds
lives
hope
love and secrets
enchantment
stary nights
and a pilot who will take you wherever you please
i created this
and it makes me happy
ever so often ill go
to pack 
and find id forgotten all about 
the little world that
lives under my bed 

little worlds exist everywhere we go.
we just dont know it sometimes.
this is one of mine

Sunday, November 8, 2009







we raked some leaves
i stole a chocolate biscotti
from my moms house last night
you and i will eat it in the bathroom
its in my purse
it will be our little
SECRET
we will watch mona in our bed tonight
we do this often
arden will end up in the middle
because she always does
and all will be well
sunday i love you

Tuesday, November 3, 2009


ladies and gents, may i now introduce you to kevin...and her hot boyfriend "destroy" and dont forget miss kitty
(our offspring)
it was a night to remember.living in a box is hard. its hard to parent. its hard to sit or hear people talking to you.but its fun to say "i am kevin" over and over to complete strangers.
"I AM KEVIN"
"I AM KEVIN"
Oh kevin i love you