this man has my name on his head.....and it makes me happy....so i hung it on my wall.

 Sereously...how do you come back from this?? i watched a bunch of stupid pregnant shows late last night,beau suffered through them with me. i think i even cried at parts. whats my handle?why am i watching these? we never forget, and thats the truth...how could someone forget turning into a human watermellon?

 Picked out two little white plates,and turned them into these.. MY LITTLE ONES HAND, THE ONLY THING I DID WAS WRITE HER NAME ON IT. I MADE SURE BEAU DIDNT HELP HER PAINT. I WANTED IT ALL HER...AND IT IS , SWEET THREE YEAR OLD ART...PERFECT.

it was a good week.got my Holga camera,(thanks beauie)  its perfect for me because i drop things. i need a bacon and eggs sticker to put on it, that or im covering it with fabric....something vintage trashy looking. painted pottery with beau and miss arden. ate italian twice because i am italian now.went shopping ALONE and loved every second of it. stayed out way to late with my girlfriends singing songs and being the only sober girls at the place. acdc,fergy....you name it it got sung. it was hillarious, and i cant wait to go back....maby. my parents came down and that was the best part....my parents: forrest+bonnie=AMAZING...how cute are they?yes i took them to my great salt lake and they loved it as much as i do.(ps: im going swiming in it this week)  All in all an amazing birthday, i look like im turning 14 in this picture dont i? i just want to freeze time....im done getting older,so done. thee end.

i loved  my cake,beau and arden made it together.it has my camera in sparkle frosting,and arden put two goldfish crackers in the middle...melt my heart

Turned a nasty 26,getting old.Pictures comming soon.... 

                  

the great salt lake
-smells funny
-has hundreds of nats that swarm at your feet
-has mithical creatures that swim below(maby)
-is my sunday spot
-i love to drive here
-my little one beleves mermaids live here
-i try to beleve too

-is a wonderfull place to think
-and play make beleve

-and just be


in this picture i was pretending to be stranded and running from men with guns....think No country for old men..that was the idea.

  soaking up all the beautyful sunshine before shes gone. this was our weekend. the pool,the garden,and the dirt....love the dirt.

EMILY I LIKE TO RUN AWAY SOMEONE

My mind is going 100 mph tonight
listening to the pixiesgoing 80 on i15 at midnight
I CANT STAY IN THAT BED
my mind wont let me
i have so many fears that i need to let go of
so many
let go emily
let go
LET GO
just go for it
paint
read
sing
dance naked
be yourself
if i could i'd fly to the moon
if i were a single girl id board a train and go away cross country.
the world would fly by as i watch strangers with mushdashes and funny laughs.
we'd all eat our ham and peas on the strange dinar car. i'd be the white headed girl alone in the back.I WONT TALK TO ANYONE.
BUT I'LL THINK ABOUT TALKING TO THEM.
children will think im strange and my feet will smell .
I WONT CARE
because for the moment i've let go, i've completely let go.
god will smile
he'll worry also
"what is this strange creature of mine doing in cansas,eating a day old danish,on a cross country train? she should be in utah"
AHHHHH...UTAH.
get me out just for now. just a glimpse
maby i'll go there in my dreams tonight.maby in my dreams,i'll smile at the world and the world will smile back at me. MABY
WRITTEN BY ME JAN,21,2006

I NEED THIS DREAM TONIGHT. I FEEL A LITTLE STUCK TODAY. IF ARDEN WERE A NEWBORN, I'D GRAB A RAG AND TIE HER TOO ME, AND BOARD THAT TRAIN. I NEED ADVENTURE LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE NEED A CIGARETTE. THIS IS HOW I FEEL THIS SECOND.

maby im a fool for beleving you.