HeLLo kitty

Arden betty

my baby is three! three years old, and im in shock. in my mind i have been re-living the moments and the events from her birth.here are a few things that i will share.
-eating steak the night before i went in to be induced...i looked and felt like crap, but savored every last bite.
-contracting in my room for days, counting minutes between them
-watching pbs in the dark and screaming during the contractions:)
-eating lime ice and watching little mermaid in the bed minutes before she came
-pulling my braids and saying the f word at beau because "you did this to me"
-my flannel wal mart pjs
-those blue sox around my swollen ancles
on a lighter note...
-her little face
-nursing her and rocking her to enya
-that delish tart from the hospital...i dig hospital food
-not letting beau watch forest gump because "it was bad"-and we need to be good for the baby:)
-being absolutely and positively in love
with my little bundle and those lil poops
-not second guessing her name, she was arden betty the first moment i saw her
-the EMOTIONS!! was a bawl baby, and weird,and paraniod...baby blues,poast pardum, you name it i had it
-setting up our christmas tree, crying at stupid songs on the radio like...the rembrants "anywhere you go i'll follow you down"-i was
pathetic:)
-the weirdo nurse that i swear was an escapee from a nut house posing as a nurse
-the roses from my family
-beau gave me heavenly purfume and because of the baby and skin to skin contact i wore it six months later
-telling beau to "slow down" on the freeway even though he was going 45mph
I REMEMBER ALL THIS AND MORE LIKE IT WAS A WEEK AGO, IT WAS HARD BUT I WOULDNT TAKE IT BACK FOR A SECOND...I LOVE MY LITTLE LADY SO MUCH..HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY.

Yes, it was hello kitty madness....enjoy

these are my watercolors

they used to belong

to a girl called

kiola

she wrote her name on them

they were perfect when i found em

now look at them

used

loved

they are mine now

i have left my mark

kiola

you cant have them back

I LOVE MARK RYDEN
SOME PEOPLE ARE A LITTLE "FREAKED" BY HIS ART
I AM ONLY INSPIRED
I WOULD LOVE TO MEET HIM

HE IS AMAZING

dreams

i have these

dreams these bad dreams

every week

my hair is

gone

all gone

and its all my fault because i

cut it off

i have hair issues

when i was 14

my sister told me i would look

bad with long hair.

so,i kept it short for

five long years

it makes me wanna throw up

thinking about that hair.

i dont care how

raggidy this mop gets.

i will never cut it off.

sorry locks of love.its this or suicide.

IN THIS LITTLE WEEK-LOOKED OUT MY KITCHEN WINDOW (NOVEMBER)
AND SAW THIS ROSE
-DISCOVERED A NEW LIBRARY THAT IM IN LOVE WITH
-WAS NICE AS PIE TO THE MEAN LADY AT THE HELLO
KITTY STORE SHE WAS NICE BACK.....HMMMM
-RE-READING SPEAK (SUCH A GOOD BOOK)IN LOVE
-ALMOST CUT MY OWN BANGS IN A BRIEF MOMENT OF INSANITY....
-FOUND AN OLD SONG FROM AN OLD LOVE "MIX TAPE"-THAT I HAVENT HEARD IN YEARS...ONLY TO FIND I STILL LOVE MY "RAINY DAY SONG"
-ALMOST MADE BEAU GET ME PREGNANT, BUT THEN DECIDED "HMMMM MABY ILL SLEEP A LITTLE INSTEAD"
BECAUSE DAMN,THIS HOUSE IS CRAZY ENOUGH AS IT IS....... IM STILL TOYING WITH THE IDEA OF A LITTLE ONE.ITS ON THE BRAIN-"INsAnE iN tHE fReEkIn MeMbRaNe"

-beau has just made an "indian call" out out of a mini-dots (halloween candy) box and is watching fast and the furious...GaY but at least he made me some lemon zinger tea...thanks poop.
-arden just had a orange juice tantrum(because she dosnt pee enough right?) and is watching "balemtime" aka (Land before TiMe)in my bed
-and im here....JUST... TAKING IT ALL IN.

inside one of my little reds
lives
hope
love and secrets
enchantment
stary nights
and a pilot who will take you wherever you please
i created this
and it makes me happy
ever so often ill go
to pack 
and find id forgotten all about 
the little world that
lives under my bed 

little worlds exist everywhere we go.
we just dont know it sometimes.
this is one of mine

we raked some leaves

i stole a chocolate biscotti

from my moms house last night

you and i will eat it in the bathroom

its in my purse

it will be our little

SECRET

we will watch mona in our bed tonight

we do this often

arden will end up in the middle

because she always does

and all will be well

sunday i love you

ladies and gents, may i now introduce you to kevin...and her hot boyfriend "destroy" and dont forget miss kitty
(our offspring)

it was a night to remember.living in a box is hard. its hard to parent. its hard to sit or hear people talking to you.but its fun to say "i am kevin" over and over to complete strangers.

"I AM KEVIN"

"I AM KEVIN"

Oh kevin i love you