THREE LIL MONTHS
i am feeling a litle bit like emily again
my energy is returning
me and miss arden actually leave the house now...
im growing fast, and loving and embracing it
even my thys....a little
this baby is so sweet
i can feel its little spirit with me every day
and that is pure bliss
beau and i will see our baby for the first time
this thursday!!
and i cant wait...i pray everything is perfect inside
my doctor is a female obg so this is new for me
things are going to be diffrent this pregnancy and birth
i will go into that another day soon
for now....heres me and baby...almost done with this.....

InSaNe first trimester

My sexie husband turned 29
i baked him a violent war cake
this year
blood n guts
we ate trashy breakfast at a diner
in a hood
it was fun
our waters had float-ies
we spent the day together
and it was fab
three things
three
littlethings
that i love about beau
1. the freckle on his bottom lip
2. because he will say things that i am thinking at the exact moment
3. the man is a go getter..the sky is the limit with beau..nothing is out of reach
4. i said three...now go get your own husband:)

summer time
im dreaming of this
i cant wait to ride my bycycle
and buy fireworks
and eat snow cones
and get so brown...from the sun of corce
(no tanning beds for me)
i miss my little summer house
with the ivy
and our big trees
i will buy arden the biggest blow up pool
and we will spend hours here
soon enough
soon enough...

this is what my baby looks like today

i am ten weeks into this

THING

making baloney sam-witches

like every hour

i live in my yoga pants

and my war is over T-SHIRT

i vacumed today

so i feel like a bad ass

"OH YEAH LOOK AT ME"

suckin up dirt...what a loser

i jusk keep

dreaming of summer days

arden wants to name the baby 

TYLER

i told her no chance...

stuck on boys names??

have a million girl names 

ready to go

for now thats it 

             me and baby ten weeks

I LOVE THIS MAN
SEREOUSLY.....I DO
THIS IS OUR SEVENTH VALENTINES DAY TOGETHER
WE UP AND WENT TO VEGAS FOR "BALEMTIMES"
RODE UP WITH GOOD FRIENDS (ALSO PREGNANT AND FEELIN IT)
THREW UP IN THE DESERT...BEANS HURT COMMING UP
PEED SOME TOO
THEN PUKED MORE AND SAID THE EFF WORD :)
HAD SOME RASBERRY GILATTO...DELISH
SLEPT IN THE BEST DIVE EVER
AND BUSTED OUT HOT PINK MAGNIFICENCE
TMI?
I DONT CARE
LOST 20 BUCKS....(BEAU)
I ACTUALLY ATE A SMALL STEAK FOR VALENTINES DINNER
AND KEPT IT DOWN
SNUGGLED WITH BEAU AND JUST TOLD MYSELF
DESPITE THE CIGARETTE MUST AND THE WEIRD
STAINS ON THE CARPET (OF THE DIVE)
THIS IS HEAVEN BECAUSE IM WITH YOU.
HE GOT SICK ON THE RIDE HOME...
I THINK IT WAS SIMPATHY PAINS
BECAUSE HE HAD MY EXACT SYMPTOMS FOR ONE DAY ONLY
ALL IN ALL GREAT/INSANE VALENTINES DAY
ILL NEVER FORGET IT

So happy valentines day

i hope he buys you roses

this song

by

alkaline trio

just makes me cry

a little bit

its called

enjoy your day

listen to it

and your heart will

break

paint baby

arden and i painted yesterday afternoon

she got very into it

i love sharing my passion for

art with my child

this is what she looked like

when we were all done

melt my heart

the real thing things are the same
vomit
vomit
vomit
my mom came and took care of me for a week
then i went back home with her (to get babysat more)
i am not myself
i am boring and weird
i hate those foods i used to love
i love being in bed
i dry heave at any smell
drove past an olive garden sign on the freeway
and chunks were rising in my throat
made beau drive across town to buy me tacos
when he got home i wasnt craving them anymore
i actually cried
about tacos??
im a wimp about everything
my mom wanted to make tunafish
i told her to go outside in the snow to do it
i wasnt like this with arden
yeah i puked....all the time
but the smell thing?
im like a damn drug dog...sereously
i can smell anything and it friggin sucks
preggy pops do not work
i refuse to take medication for this....
why? so my baby can be born with no spine or something??
ha...no way
bought a new bed...i want my room to be pretty
because my secret plan is to give birth here by myself
that or in my ugly blue tub
up top is a picure...of what i pretty much look
like every day:)
bed head
no makeup
house is a mess
morning breath all day long