paint baby

arden and i painted yesterday afternoon

she got very into it

i love sharing my passion for

art with my child

this is what she looked like

when we were all done

melt my heart

the real thing things are the same
vomit
vomit
vomit
my mom came and took care of me for a week
then i went back home with her (to get babysat more)
i am not myself
i am boring and weird
i hate those foods i used to love
i love being in bed
i dry heave at any smell
drove past an olive garden sign on the freeway
and chunks were rising in my throat
made beau drive across town to buy me tacos
when he got home i wasnt craving them anymore
i actually cried
about tacos??
im a wimp about everything
my mom wanted to make tunafish
i told her to go outside in the snow to do it
i wasnt like this with arden
yeah i puked....all the time
but the smell thing?
im like a damn drug dog...sereously
i can smell anything and it friggin sucks
preggy pops do not work
i refuse to take medication for this....
why? so my baby can be born with no spine or something??
ha...no way
bought a new bed...i want my room to be pretty
because my secret plan is to give birth here by myself
that or in my ugly blue tub
up top is a picure...of what i pretty much look
like every day:)
bed head
no makeup
house is a mess
morning breath all day long

ARDEN ON ICE

TOOK OUR LIL LADY

ICE SKATING FOR HER FIRST TIME THIS PAST WEEKEND

IT WAS ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS A MOMMY

AND DADDY WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER

THE SMILE ON HER FACE

WAS PRICELESS

OUR LITTLE

ICE BABY

SHE BRINGS US

SO

MUCH

JOY

I LOVE MY LITTLE FAMILY SO

forgive me
this blog is turning into a pregnant rant
i cant help it
its whats goin on...
the dry heaves
the nausia
and all i want is sleep.... my child watches disneys all day long

as i lie beside her in bed and gurgle
and stink
and look like hell :)
sereously i do
im pale and smelly
my sweats are my bffs... first tri you are a killer
food....I HATE FOOD
i am like anorexic because everything makes me sick
ok....except for the occasional
pintos and cheese that i force beau to go
buy me (breaking the sabbath)
so i can have the strength to walk
those beans were a god send to me 
went to olive garden
in my friggin pjs
to get me and arden take out
thats it...thats what we did today
oh except i couldnt eat mine because..... yuck
and every smell makes me
want to stab people:)
beaus calogne...normally sexie....barf
my dogs.....double barf
that green candle my friend gave me....yack
i smell everything, and its killing me
please someone take me out of my mysery
i told beau "first thing im doing when this baby comes out
is spank it on the butt"
what do i expect? i have naughty babies:)

this time around
all i wanna do is sleep
and eat chocolate cake
this is everything to me...
i get more excited about chocolate
then i do
sex
money
or anything

it is all that matters to me
dont mess with my cake or you'll be sorry
lasagnia is good too

FOUND OUT LAST WEEK

WERE GUNNA HAVE A BABY!!

MY PRAYRES WERE ANSWERED

TOOK THE TEST ON A WHIM AT

MIDNIGHT

AND STAYED AWAKE

ALMOST ALL NIGHT...

THINKING ABOUT HOW MUCH

OUR LIVES ARE CHANGING

WE ARE EXTATIC!!

I AM INTO MY SECOND MONTH,

AND OBSESSED WITH MY LIL

ONE GROWING INSIDE OF ME

BOOBS KILL

NOT MUCH ENERGY

FEELING GOOD

HOPE TO STAY AWAY FROM

THE DREADED TOILET

AND MORNING SICKNESS

CROSS YOUR FINGERS

Gangs all here!

to arden everything is magic and makebeleve
sometimes she plays that we are friends, and this goes on for hours
when i try to call her baby or little one,and kiss her she says "no your my friend,im big"
she said she was taking her kids:
grandma= a purple care bear
elmo= whom she naimed gean
kayley = a pink care bear
minnie= minnie mouse
my little boy= my old childhood brown bear
and marium= her green mermaid doll
to a festival
these little stuffed animals are real to her
she is never without them
they go where she goes

she even makes up stories about the things they do
i feel blessed
to have such a wonderfully smart and imaginitive child
she brings me so much joy each day

i have been reading alot lately

my favorite spot is in the tub

i lock the door and run the water

as hot as i can

then i make beau bring me ice water

what do i read?

ha, your going to laugh

baby

name

books

i know,i know

damnit i know

i said i wanted one..child

and i lied

noooooo

im not pregnant

i dont think?

but i hope i will be soon

arden was a one shot wonder

and a huge oopsie

we will have to see about

the next one

but for now....

im dreaming of little brown eyes

and little feet

and i cant wait to put

up a baby crib

yes, im insane

its official

"all that she wants is another baby"

Tonight i will use this

its my cookbook

i love it

got it for 50 cents

happy new year!

bringing it in with twinkie kabobs

what else??

what will i put on them

besides twinkies of corce....

lemme see...

marshmellows

cherries

pineapple

and love

always love

is it sad that this is

the only real cookbook

that i use?

its snowing outside
i am eating jellybeans
all except the black ones
i have a cold sore the size of minniapolas on my lip
i cant spell minniapolas
and thats ok
because i have never been there
listened to coheed and cambria all the way to work today
i almost slid off the road
all i could think of was if i died in a car wreck would coheed and cambria still be playing on my radio?
when the cops pulled my body out of the car, this would be the background music to my death
i think im reading to much poe...
except that....i always do this
i am morbid
yes thank you very much i know
i am weird
if anyone likes the black ones,come over and you can have them
they are just sitting here all sad because i refuse to eat them
white is gross too
take them also

i think you need to know that i love this man...eDgAr aLlAn pOe...his words are hauntingly beautyful...and creepy and perfeCt. my dear friend gave me this book as a gift today...and it will go down in history as one of the best gifts i have ever recieved. the best part of recieving a book? the inscription left by the givee...i have a few of these in books from the past that absolutely haunt me.

and that my friends brings me to another poe that i love. yep miss angry jonny herself...her music fuels my painting fire like nothing else....wanna see me go nuts on a canvas?-ill be listening to poe.

LOVE + TOAST

If you were to give me a hug today, this is what i'd smell like.
put your head cloce to the screen and sniff......
not getting anything?! sorry.
let me describe it for you....its like the day the sugar cookie maried a flower in my moms garden and i was the brides maid.
its like the drive on the freeway in the sunset the day i married beau. i had a blue snow cone in my hand,my white fluffy dress all around me,and a smile. his face was all i could see. travis was playing on the radio.
this purfume....is me on my bycycle downtown with sandals on my feet and a cherry loli pop sucker in my mouth,the sun is shining and the world is bright.
if i could, i would wrap this scent in a box and then give it to my daughters daughters...just so they could know the smell of pure happiness...the way i do today.
im in love with today for no real reason at all.

my little pin up chick

painted her on the back of a cerial box. great value bran never looked so good.

she lives on my bathroom wall.

rice

making rice bags for christmas.havent bought one thing...unless a 20lb bag of rice counts? im getting better, had a few spills, one or two meltdowns, but other then that im loving sewing. just me and a little needle and a piece of thread. 

dollar store sewing kit and my one true love

merry christmas

enjoy the rice in your bed and my crookid stitches...

Painted these for miss babies room, and i finally hung them up this week. i also made a frog on a unicycle balancing a cake, and a mouse and a duck with umbrellas. need to find more frames and get them up. they were fun to do, and only took one nap time to make.

ps: kitty looks wEiRd because my my camera hates me and is the devil...maby because i drop it every day.

Tis the season for UGLY sweaters

Bought some nasty, probably flee ridden, second hand sweaters. glued some crap on them, sewed a little too....
Had a feast...turky, ham, mac n chees, potatoes...and  a bunch of other delish foods. Then, we celebrated with friends....in ugly sweater magnificence. it was fantastic, guess you could say i got what i wanted for christmas this year.
-loved that scott and anna didnt wash the sweaters they bought and scott was itchy the entire night
-loved that the snowman on mine got heavy,and kept getting crap on it because it was huge!
-loved the question game and peeing our pants laughing so hard
-green jello...enough said
-loved pranking my mom with the pizza guy because linking phone calls is amazing

-love my new multicolored,handmade,framed picture of a gingerbread house.

TIP TOE ALL THE WAY TO IDAHO

painted her in 2003 on the break of 2004....it was a rough winter. one of the roughest ive ever experienced in my 26 years. i slept all day and worked all night. i was comming off a seven month summer...the seasons were all messed up. it was a time of growth for me.

FABULOUS
I FOUND THIS BOOK
AND IT MAKES ME PEE MY PANTIES
AMY SEDARIS IS MY NEW BEST FRIEND
HOW I FOUND THIS LITTLE TREASURE BEFORE THE HOLIDAYS IS A MIRICALE
WHEN I READ THIS BOOK ON ENTERTAINING I HAVE TEARS OF JOY RUNNING DOWN MY LIL CHEEKS
READ IT, IF YOU HAVE A GOOD SENSE OF HUMOR IT WILL MAKE YOU SO HAPPY

HeLLo kitty

Arden betty

my baby is three! three years old, and im in shock. in my mind i have been re-living the moments and the events from her birth.here are a few things that i will share.
-eating steak the night before i went in to be induced...i looked and felt like crap, but savored every last bite.
-contracting in my room for days, counting minutes between them
-watching pbs in the dark and screaming during the contractions:)
-eating lime ice and watching little mermaid in the bed minutes before she came
-pulling my braids and saying the f word at beau because "you did this to me"
-my flannel wal mart pjs
-those blue sox around my swollen ancles
on a lighter note...
-her little face
-nursing her and rocking her to enya
-that delish tart from the hospital...i dig hospital food
-not letting beau watch forest gump because "it was bad"-and we need to be good for the baby:)
-being absolutely and positively in love
with my little bundle and those lil poops
-not second guessing her name, she was arden betty the first moment i saw her
-the EMOTIONS!! was a bawl baby, and weird,and paraniod...baby blues,poast pardum, you name it i had it
-setting up our christmas tree, crying at stupid songs on the radio like...the rembrants "anywhere you go i'll follow you down"-i was
pathetic:)
-the weirdo nurse that i swear was an escapee from a nut house posing as a nurse
-the roses from my family
-beau gave me heavenly purfume and because of the baby and skin to skin contact i wore it six months later
-telling beau to "slow down" on the freeway even though he was going 45mph
I REMEMBER ALL THIS AND MORE LIKE IT WAS A WEEK AGO, IT WAS HARD BUT I WOULDNT TAKE IT BACK FOR A SECOND...I LOVE MY LITTLE LADY SO MUCH..HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY.

Yes, it was hello kitty madness....enjoy