Saturday, March 14, 2009

on a cloudy day

RiLo KiLEy -a bEtTer SoN/dAuGhTeR
i Found rilo kiley in my mail box 5 years ago via a burned cd from my pal laura. i remember locking myself in my parents bathroom...listening to this and thinking wow there is hope.....someone out there feels as crazy and out of sorts as me.it was a dark winter. i worked the midnight shift in a gas station located by nothinhg but open space and maby a trailer park. all i needed was a couple hundred dollars and then i'd plan my next escape.this song among others got me through sleeping all day and cleaning slurpy machines all night. so thank you rilo kiley...i still do and always will need you. here are the dazziling lyrics to one of my favorite songs
SOMETIMES IN THE MORNINNG I AM PETRIFIED AND CANT MOVE
AWAKE BUT CANNOT OPEN MY EYES
AND THE WEIGHT IS CRUSHING DOWN ON MY LUNGS
I KNOW I CANT BREATHE AND HOPE SOMEONE WILL SAVE ME THIS TIME
AND YOUR MOTHERS STILL CALLIN YOU INSANE AND HIGH
SWEARIN ITS DIFFERENT THIS TIME
AND YOU TELL HER TO GIVE IN TO THE DEMONS THAT POSSESS HER
THAT GOD NEVER BLESSED HER INSIDES
THEN YOU HANG UP THE PHONE AND FEEL BADLY FOR UPSETTING THINGS
CRAWL BACK INTO BED TO DREAM OF A TIME
WHEN YOUR HEART WAS OPEN WIDE AND YOU LOVED THINGS JUST BECAUSE
LIKE THE SICK AND THE DYING

AND SOMETIMES WHEN YOUR ON YOUR REALLY effing ON
AND YOUR FRIENDS THEY SING ALONG AND THEY LOVE YOU
BUT THE LOWS ARE SO EXTREME THAT THE GOOD SEEMS effing CHEEP
AND IT TEASES YOU FOR WEEKS IN ITS ABSENCE
BUT YOULL FIGHT AND YOULL MAKE IT THROUGH
YOULL FAKE IT IF YOU HAVE TOO
AND YOULL SHOW UP FOR WORK WITH A SMILE
YOULL BE BETTER AND YOULL BE SMARTER
AND MORE GROWN UP AND A BETTER DAUGHTER
OR SON
AND A REAL GOOD FRIEND
AND YOULL BE AWAKE
YOULL BE ALERT YOULL BE POSITIVE THO IT HURTS
AND YOULL LAUGH AND EMBRACE ALL YOUR FRIENDS
AND YOULL BE A REAL GOOD LISTENER
YOULL BE HONEST YOULL BE BRAVE
YOULL BE HANDSOME AND YOULL BE BEAUTYFULL
YOULL BE HAPPY
YOUR SHIP MAY BE COMMIN IN
YOUR WEAK BUT NOT GIVIN IN TO THE CRIES AND THE WALES OF THE VALLEY BELOW
AND YOUR SHIP MAY BE COMMIN IN YOUR WEAK BUT NOT GIVIN IN
AND YOULL FIGHT IT IF YOU GO OUT FIGHTIN ALL OF EM.

please go listen to this song asap. you will understand why i love it so.

4 comments:

Jessica Potter said...

Ems I heart you.

Heather said...

And they say music doesn't influence. I think music is very powerful. Thanks for sharing.

Kit said...

You are the best. Man, I so picture you in that little gas station cleaning slurpy machines. You hate those jobs when your there, but now I just want to go back to my days at TCBy where nothing was expected of me, but filling up waffle cones with fine ice cream.

L.B. said...

we should write letters again